My rant

[Mockingjay99]

So, this is my rant/explanation for possibly leaving the forums. Enjoy, or don't.


First off, let me tell you guys how great you all have made me feel these last few months I've been on. I've never felt more...special. You guys are all great. I love every single freaking one of you, and I cannot begin to explain how happy it made me to see you guys excited when I got on, or just have a nice conversation with one of you. Especially since I've never met any of you in person, and I feel like you all love me more than my real friends.

Now, you all have known me as "Gingie" since March when Missingllama decided to start calling me that. Well, yes, I'm a ginger. But guess what that means to some immature teenagers called Middle Schoolers? "Ginger" means, "Another person to pick on" basically. I was insulted, and had some bad days this year. Because for the first time in my life, I was being, I guess, bullied. I never was picked on throughout elementary school. So this was new to me. And it's not like one big old bully has been picking on me. It's several people. People I call my friends, and some I barely speak to.

One day, I was just not even freaking having a good day, and then this kid decides to tell about 10 of my friends it's "Kick a Ginger day" One of my good friends then kicks my shin, and I walked away from that group of kids. I wasn't going to deal with that. So I walked over to my great friend Marissa, and she was walking with her boyfriend Hunter. I told them what happened after Marissa asked, and then my very best friend, Menley, kicked my ankle from behind me. I rolled my eyes, and walked away to another group of my friends.

Now, I know this doesn't seem like it makes sense into any of this, but just wait, okay?

I went over to a group of 6 or 7 of my friends, I talk to lots of people, and I'm friends with lots. So I stood there, and my friend Kaitlyn asked what was wrong, and I said nothing. Then my friend Ally said, "I won't kick you, Livie." but she did.

Basically, that day was just not great. This kind of stuff goes on all throughout my days at school, and I was tired of it. I thought about dying my hair numerous times, but I couldn't. Anyways, you guys were the ones who helped me when stuff was hard. I told Llama about my day that day, and we talked about it. I felt so much freaking better. During times like this, I don't go to my real friends. I go to you guys. Not any of my friends know I stil like Jacob. You guys do.

I love having a place where I felt....Loved everytime I was on. But Things are changing and people are too. It's not the same place it used to be.

I've confessed secrets to some of you, and I know I'll always try to stay on these forums. But I haven't been feeling it lately. Not at all, but I think there's only a 25% chance I would quit the forums, because I love you guys too much. If I ever do, leave the forums, I can promise you all I'll talk to you. I have some of your guys' e-mails. I'm friends with 5 of you on Facebook, and I know I would never ever, just quit on you guys. If I left, I wouldn't leave you guys. I couldn't ever do that.

I'm not a fan of drama though, so when that stuff starts, cause I know it will, I'll disapear until it's over. Good?

I love you guys.

~Mockingjay99

[Mockingjay99]

Sorry it was long.... And a bit pointless...

[Wolfwhispers]

Oh my special booger you are getting picked on and I'm too far away to come and knock them out

[Mockingjay99]

Oh my special booger you are getting picked on and I'm too far away to come and knock them out

It was my friends too, and they still do it

Everyday...

[Jillybean]

Olivia (I feel bad for calling u Gingie now) I am so sorry all of that happened to you. I can't believe anyone would do something that terrible yuo such and amazi person. I'm am in total shock. Thos people are missing out in possibly the greatest person they will ever meet. They are terrible and I wish you could forget about it, but u obviously can't. I hope, and wish I could help u in any way possible. But you really are so amazing and great and kind and swet and funny. I felt like I have become really good friends with you. I'm sorry I am crying about this. I really am. I just truly love you so much and I hate losing people. Ask Quinn its my biggest fear in life... Mor than bugs. I really love you to death and would do anything for you. I just love you so much and I love you so much and that all ican seem to say right now. I love you so much I love you do much I love you sooooooo much

[Jillybean]

I would seriously beat them up if I were close by. Hey are b**** and d***** and f**** them. They are terrible people. They are terrible. I want to kill them

[Mockingjay99]

Olivia (I feel bad for calling u Gingie now) I am so sorry all of that happened to you. I can't believe anyone would do something that terrible yuo such and amazi person. I'm am in total shock. Thos people are missing out in possibly the greatest person they will ever meet. They are terrible and I wish you could forget about it, but u obviously can't. I hope, and wish I could help u in any way possible. But you really are so amazing and great and kind and swet and funny. I felt like I have become really good friends with you. I'm sorry I am crying about this. I really am. I just truly love you so much and I hate losing people. Ask Quinn its my biggest fear in life... Mor than bugs. I really love you to death and would do anything for you. I just love you so much and I love you so much and that all ican seem to say right now. I love you so much I love you do much I love you sooooooo much

Crying's fine. I've already teared up tonight.

Gingie wasn't ever offensive to me, I've heard a lot worse.

Jilly, Thank you dear <333333333333!

There's more to that, but that's the biggest thing tht came to mind why I was just.ugh.

[Wolfwhispers]

If your friends don't stick by you when other people pick on you, and they follow the group like little puppies then they are not your real friends so you shouldn't call them friends...but that one is for you to decide.
It can be hard to not have friends but if you feel comfortable with yourself and who you are then don't let them push you around. Friends who push you around when others push you around are not worth holding onto.
I have been there...plus I am a ginger too and have been called Ranger and picked on for it, but all I did was say yep I am and so what. I like my red hair.
Besides you can change your hair colour, but they are ugly on the inside and you can't really change that. They will be like that all throughout school probably because they obviously are too influenced by the group.

[Jillybean]

Screw them. I wish I could cuss on her cuz y'all would be hearing lots of colorful language.

[ilovepeeta]

Some how i feel responseable im sorry