So, this is my rant/explanation for possibly leaving the forums. Enjoy, or don't.
First off, let me tell you guys how great you all have made me feel these last few months I've been on. I've never felt more...special. You guys are all great. I love every single freaking one of you, and I cannot begin to explain how happy it made me to see you guys excited when I got on, or just have a nice conversation with one of you. Especially since I've never met any of you in person, and I feel like you all love me more than my real friends.
Now, you all have known me as "Gingie" since March when Missingllama decided to start calling me that. Well, yes, I'm a ginger. But guess what that means to some immature teenagers called Middle Schoolers? "Ginger" means, "Another person to pick on" basically. I was insulted, and had some bad days this year. Because for the first time in my life, I was being, I guess, bullied. I never was picked on throughout elementary school. So this was new to me. And it's not like one big old bully has been picking on me. It's several people. People I call my friends, and some I barely speak to.
One day, I was just not even freaking having a good day, and then this kid decides to tell about 10 of my friends it's "Kick a Ginger day" One of my good friends then kicks my shin, and I walked away from that group of kids. I wasn't going to deal with that. So I walked over to my great friend Marissa, and she was walking with her boyfriend Hunter. I told them what happened after Marissa asked, and then my very best friend, Menley, kicked my ankle from behind me. I rolled my eyes, and walked away to another group of my friends.
Now, I know this doesn't seem like it makes sense into any of this, but just wait, okay?
I went over to a group of 6 or 7 of my friends, I talk to lots of people, and I'm friends with lots. So I stood there, and my friend Kaitlyn asked what was wrong, and I said nothing. Then my friend Ally said, "I won't kick you, Livie." but she did.
Basically, that day was just not great. This kind of stuff goes on all throughout my days at school, and I was tired of it. I thought about dying my hair numerous times, but I couldn't. Anyways, you guys were the ones who helped me when stuff was hard. I told Llama about my day that day, and we talked about it. I felt so much freaking better. During times like this, I don't go to my real friends. I go to you guys. Not any of my friends know I stil like Jacob. You guys do.
I love having a place where I felt....Loved everytime I was on. But Things are changing and people are too. It's not the same place it used to be.
I've confessed secrets to some of you, and I know I'll always try to stay on these forums. But I haven't been feeling it lately. Not at all, but I think there's only a 25% chance I would quit the forums, because I love you guys too much. If I ever do, leave the forums, I can promise you all I'll talk to you. I have some of your guys' e-mails. I'm friends with 5 of you on Facebook, and I know I would never ever, just quit on you guys. If I left, I wouldn't leave you guys. I couldn't ever do that.
I'm not a fan of drama though, so when that stuff starts, cause I know it will, I'll disapear until it's over. Good?
I love you guys.
Last edited by Mockingjay99
on Wed Jul 18, 2012 3:39 pm, edited 3 times in total.
"Maybe okay will be our always."